i love rachel chapin

and i hate homework.

i'm listening to ben kweller's "thirteen" on repeat. and i'm wishing i were up north. and then wishing i wasn't so silly all at the same time.

"we met on the front porch

fell in love on the phone"

oh, the telephone.

another post taken from kevin:

"As we begin to loose our purity we begin to see things in a differen't way.  Everything is kind of watered down. 

Guys joke about kissing girls when they have no idea what one kiss means to her...  you don't expect much out of anything if you've done everything.  and when you see that purity you want it so bad and you'd do anything to get it back...

Dreaming of a first kiss no longer has its magic after there's been plenty of first kisses.  It even goes to the very little things like holding hands, or cuddling while watching a movie, or to the secret glances that no one knows about.  

 physical purity today seems like it means you just haven't had sex and everything before it is kinda bad, but everyone messes up right? Thats not the way it should be.  It is sad to know that 99.9% of all men on this earth has looked at porn at one time or another. 

the very sight should be new, the very touch should be new, the very feelings shouldn't be calloused. is it bad to have been hurt and healed, i dont think so. but it seems like its gone to the point of where its good to date and everyone should just do that to get dating experience... where i almost think theres something given away in every experience whether thats physically or emotionally... am I just having a serious moment or can I really ask, where did the purity go?"

-- as a girl, i'm scared. i'll just put that out there. because while i'm single i'm keeping my thoughts and actions pure so that when i'm with the man i will marry.. i have not checked out every guy that has passed me... and am not preoccupied with shallowness. with the opposite mentality so overwhelming.. it's difficult- but i want so badly to enter into a relationship in which the guy has kept his mind and body pure. or if he has messed up-- that he is now actively pursuing purity. i'm just bummed i guess. i know god is faithful, but i.. i dont know. that's all i got.

I Like You -- by Sandol Stoddard Warburg

"On the fourth of July I like you because it's the Fourth of July

On the Fifth of July I like you too

If you and I had some drums and some horns and some horses

If we had some hats and some flags and some fire engines

We could be a Holiday

We could be a Celebration

We could be a Whole Parade

See what I mean?

Even if it was the nine-hundred-and ninety-ninth of July

Even if it was August

Even if it was way down at the bottom of November

Even if it was no place particular in January

I would go on choosing you

And you would go on choosing me

Over and over again

That's how it would be every time

I don't know why..."

-- from the cutest book I've read

why is it so common that (out of marriage) it's not unusual for a man to leave the woman when she's pregnant?

it's just as much his sperm as it was her egg

too bad he isn't the one who has to carry it around and deal with the consequences.